Coming Home

I arrived home yesterday from my anniversary trip to Paris. 1 year married, how did that happen? 

I’m still not pregnant  – I know this because I got my period 3 days early while we were away. I’m gutted, BUT – and this is huge for me – I didn’t cry!  It’s the first month that I haven’t cried so it’s a mini victory I guess. I’ll take ’em where I can get ’em at this point. 

Paris was nice. You might have been expecting more, but you won’t get it from me. ‘Nice’ is what I’m sticking with. 

Disneyland was bloody brilliant. The child in me loved it. ‘Ha! The child in me’. How ironic

 

Au Revoir!!

So I’m a little premature but between work and organising myself (I.e figuring out how to squeeze enough shoes and clothes and make up into tiny hand luggage) I doubt I’ll have time to blog before I go.

On the 25th January (Burns night to any fellow Scots out there) my husband and I will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary. Of course last year we were pregnant and excited and blablabla – we all know how that did NOT turn out. BUT! I am positive Nicola for the time being and I’m being positive about our future and about our upcoming 4 day trip to the city of luurrvveee (don’t worry I hate me too for saying that). PARIS!

We’re really trying to put the past behind us now. Not in a ‘forgetting what happened ‘ kinda way, just more like trying not to let it rule us.
So this trip is going to be a good trip. We’re going to be those annoying tourists and do annoying tourist things like go to the Louvre, Notre Dame, Catacombs, Eiffel Tower, Pete Lachaise and…. DISNEYLAND. (I’m 29 and not even slightly ashamed). We’re going to take loads of pictures, do loads of kissing, eat escargot and freshly baked croissants and maybe have some ‘grown-up’ fun  (and actually for FUN because I won’t be TTC) and most importantly I WILL NOT CRY!!! Nope. I won’t.

Oh for anyone that is just dying to know how I’m getting on, I’ll be trying to upload some pics on my IG account if I get time. (You can search “sideshownikki” to get me)

Merry Christmas

 

 

I wanted to write something christmassy/festive but I haven’t been able to get in the mood so far. I’m working Christmas day so that could explain my lack of festive spirit. It sucks. But I do finish about half 2 so I’ll still get to most to spend most of the day with my family, so that’s helped rid me of the scroogness a little bit. Yay. 

A few days ago I was thinking about how this year was supposed to be different. It would’ve been my baby’s first Christmas with us. I thought about this and cried on the train to work. Only a few drops so I don’t think anyone noticed. 

Anyway.. me and hubby had our own mini Christmas tonight. I got some great gifts. As I write this, he’s sitting on the edge of the bed playing with the virtual reality headset I bought him and he’s really making me laugh. He looks bloody ridiculous. I ought to cherish moments like these instead of reminding myself of the bad stuff. 

So while I sit here feeling festive I wanted to wish all my followers and whoever else is reading.. a very very happy Christmas and a wonderful new year!! 

Good luck to everyone on their baby making journeys and even bigger luck to those followers that are expecting and have parenthood to look forward to! 

Also.. thank you to every single person that’s liked/commented/followed my blog. You all have made a huge difference to my life.