Positive Test..Negative mood..

Positive Test..Negative mood..

I went to my GP to ask about the bleeding/passing some tissue thing and told her I thought it might have been a miscarriage as Ive been actively trying and I’ve already had 2 previous ones (7 weeks and 12 weeks)

She looked at “the specimen” I brought with me – it’s awful callling it that, but I didn’t actually know what it was (still don’t). She didn’t look me over,  take a blood test,  take a pregnancy test,  nothing!! Basically said it was prob a miscarriage and she would refer me to a specialist and they would do tests to see if there was a reason why I keep having MCs. I explained I’ve already had these tests and nothing showed up. She went ahead and referred me anyway and sent me on my merry way.

When I got home, I took a pregnancy test as at that point nothing had actually been confirmed. It came up positive. Ok.. so it was a miscarriage. Now I finally had my answer.

Its Sunday now and I have less answers and more questions. I took another test tonight around 5pm and it was a much clearer positive. My boobs are agony and they were fine a few days ago. I still have some spotting but the blood has never been massively heavy. Its never soaked through or anything. It was so different to my other miscarriages. Yes there was some cramping,  but it wasn’t excruciating pain like it was last time. I could barely stand with the pain, and my tummy was sore to the touch.

So what now? Was it a miscarriage? Was it a chemical pregnancy? Maybe I still have something more to pass? Am I still pregnant? Why hasn’t my doctor scanned me or sent me to hospital?? I feel like I was just shooed out of her office with more questions than answers. I have no idea what to think or do now. My husband doesn’t want me to get my hopes up and think that I’m still pregnant which I totally get.. but it’s the not knowing that’s worse. I can’t really be sure of what’s happened and that’s killing me.


5 thoughts on “Positive Test..Negative mood..

  1. This is terrible, I’m so sorry! If the tests are getting darker, there’s definitely some pregnancy tissue retained. If you’re bleeding anymore, I think you should see a doctor and get a scan, you might need a D&C to remove it all. It happened to me with my last loss. Can you go to the hospital if your doctor is not being helpful? Hope you get this handled soon, it’s so hard… Hugs

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    1. Thank you so much for commenting. . Was just reaching out for someone I think.
      Im going to wait til Friday and then take another test. Im still bleeding but its light so I’m not too panicky write now. If I test positive on friday then I’ll def bypass my doctors and straight to hospital!

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  2. I can’t even tell you how disgusted I am by your GP. It sadly doesn’t surprise me, but it’s horrendous all the same. Please look after yourself and go straight to the hospital if there’s any change at all. I’m thinking of you and hoping you’re as OK as you can be. Always here if you need to talk xx

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    1. Thank u so much hun. That means alot. It’s so frustrating to be trying for so long and then fr this to happen again. My work are being even bloody worse n I just feel horrible at the minute. I’ve got a few days off so gna take it easy n see how things progress. Will keep everyone updated. Thank u again xxx

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